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Purpose and Rape: Why does Jay Bauman fantasize about being raped
Catharsis is the name of the game, because catharsis rather than “wish fulfilment”/actively getting what you want (id-satisfaction, animal desire-satisfaction. literal dopamine, eating, chewing, cumming, etc.) is the moment in which you transcend the id, AND the superego. You transcend pleasure and Judgement. Catharsis, by it’s very nature is coming into connection with, touching the universe of Morality, Objective Good and Evil, Value.
Catharsis isn’t about feeling good or bad, it is not about “satisfaction”, it is not about getting off and it is not about Cumming. “Rape fantasies” are about powerlessness, and the moment of catharsis is a moment of failure — a failure to defend yourself, a physical failure to prevent the transgression. It’s not so much about the pennors in vaginny — this is a formality. The moment of helplessness, of when you give up, and stop struggling — this is the moment of “pleasure”. This is the moment of catharsis.
Fantasising about *failure* is not about Cumming — it is about catharsis. The fantasy…